The confessions are back! Are you guys ready? For my second confession I think I'm going to stay small again and go with another quirk I have. I promise we'll get into deeper things but it takes time to open up about certain things. So this Friday I confess that I have a food hoarding problem. I don't have an eating disorder, I don't over or under eat, I just have a fear of running out of food so I stash some back. My kitchen has terrible storage space so I have a huge storage tub that I use for extra storage. I can see my tub getting low and I replenish even before I've ever seen the bottom of the tub. Mom and Dad take me to Sam's Club and I stock up on restaurant sized portions of things like apple sauce, vienna sausages, and things that I think I'll need to get by if everything else runs out. I've even caught myself hiding my favorite snacks in my nightstand, just in case I want them at some point and don't have them.
The weird thing about this quirk is I don't have the problem when someone is living with me. It's important that they be able to eat so I try not to hide things in my nightstand or hoard food or have too much food on hand. I don't worry that I'll run out of food when I have visitors, I just worry that I'll run out when I'm alone. It's weird because you would think I would worry about it more when there are more mouths to feed because food goes faster then but I only worry about it when I'm alone. I don't think it's a huge issue because I know that I have a small problem and I even know why I have that problem. So when I go grocery shopping I always ask myself are you buying this because you really want it or are you buying it to hoard it? So that's confession number two. Do any of you guys have a weird issue with food?
Showing posts with label Friday Confessions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Friday Confessions. Show all posts
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1/14/2011
Friday Confessions: Confession #1
I've sat and thought long and hard about what I wanted to share with you guys as my first confession. A billion thoughts streamed through my head; should it be something huge, something small and build up to bigger things? Oh my cracker, what if I don't do something good enough and everyone gets bored and decides to never read my blog again, especially after me being a jerk yesterday? I finally settled on sharing the two biggest oddities in my personality.
Oddity number one: I am extremely socially awkward. I may sound eloquent or witty when you read my writing, but in real life I have a hard time speaking to people. I love to meet new people and I like to have good conversations, but I have a really hard time with it. The issues I have may not be visible because a long time ago I trained my face to only show what I wanted it to show (I'll tell you why in a later confession) but inside of my crazy head I have a helmet on and am rocking back and forth. This oddity annoys me to no end. I wish I could be more relaxed when meeting new people and not so stressed out about it.
This brings me to oddity number two: I over analyze EVERYTHING, to the extent that I break down every sentence I've said to make sure it is grammatically correct. I have literally over thought stirring a pot of spaghetti noodles. I take every action, every word, every facial movement, every laugh, and hold it under my mental microscope for inspection. I try to look at it from every angle possible and consider every reaction other people might have to the tiniest thing. Unfortunately I do it after the matter is over. I'll sit up until 5 a.m. analyzing everything I did the previous day. I lay in bed and beg my mind to SHUT UP just so I can get some sleep. If I have to over think everything I wish I could retrain my brain to be like my first love. He also over thinks everything but he does it every second of every day rather than when he's trying to fall asleep at the end of the day.
Anyway, those are my two biggest oddities in my personal opinion. Maybe not the most shocking confession ever, but I hope this gives you a little better understanding of me. After all, that's what these confessions are about, giving people a VIP pass to the dark recesses of my mind. If you would like to share a confession please feel free to leave one in the comments. I want Friday Confessions to be about sharing.
Oddity number one: I am extremely socially awkward. I may sound eloquent or witty when you read my writing, but in real life I have a hard time speaking to people. I love to meet new people and I like to have good conversations, but I have a really hard time with it. The issues I have may not be visible because a long time ago I trained my face to only show what I wanted it to show (I'll tell you why in a later confession) but inside of my crazy head I have a helmet on and am rocking back and forth. This oddity annoys me to no end. I wish I could be more relaxed when meeting new people and not so stressed out about it.
This brings me to oddity number two: I over analyze EVERYTHING, to the extent that I break down every sentence I've said to make sure it is grammatically correct. I have literally over thought stirring a pot of spaghetti noodles. I take every action, every word, every facial movement, every laugh, and hold it under my mental microscope for inspection. I try to look at it from every angle possible and consider every reaction other people might have to the tiniest thing. Unfortunately I do it after the matter is over. I'll sit up until 5 a.m. analyzing everything I did the previous day. I lay in bed and beg my mind to SHUT UP just so I can get some sleep. If I have to over think everything I wish I could retrain my brain to be like my first love. He also over thinks everything but he does it every second of every day rather than when he's trying to fall asleep at the end of the day.
Anyway, those are my two biggest oddities in my personal opinion. Maybe not the most shocking confession ever, but I hope this gives you a little better understanding of me. After all, that's what these confessions are about, giving people a VIP pass to the dark recesses of my mind. If you would like to share a confession please feel free to leave one in the comments. I want Friday Confessions to be about sharing.
1/13/2011
Explanation of Friday Confessions
So Wendy asked me what Friday Confessions is exactly. Let me explain. As a 22, almost 23, year old, I have things that I've done and things that I think about that I normally just keep to myself. As a way to be honest with myself I feel like I should share these things. Not like a Catholic confession where I say I've sinned, no these are just things I usually keep secret that I wish to share. I will not be asking for forgiveness because while we all have things that we regret such as what if situations, etc., I think life is too short to beg forgiveness for our personal decisions. So from now on, every Friday I will confess something to you guys, it may be something dark, it may be something funny, and it may be down right weird because lets face it, I am a little weird lol, but it will always be genuine. If you guys want to participate you can add your confessions to the comments area. Later this may evolve into something more but for now it is just a weekly thing I host at my blog. Hope you guys will drip by every Friday to see what I have to say and I hope you guys feel comfortable enough to join in.
1/12/2011
Introducing a New Theme
I have finally decided on what weekly thing I would like to do. I hope you guys are going to like it! I decided on Friday Confessions. I will start them this Friday but no worries if you miss it, you will always be able to find my confessions and there will be a new one every Friday. Here's the button for it, grab it, share it, hope you like it :D
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