Hello partiers! I'm a little late to the party, but I needed time to figure out what I wanted to contribute to the party. I sat down today and started watching TV. ABCFamily is doing their 13 days of Halloween, and tonight they are playing Practical Magic. I haven't watched that movie since last year at this time of year, even though I own it. I've been questioning a lot of things this year, and watching that movie (as funny as it may sound), made a lot of things click for me. So, my contribution tonight is my rededication to my path.
When we dedicate ourselves to our path, we make a promise to whatever deity it is we worship, to stay on the path we are on, to continue learning, and to keep faith. After the rough times that have happened, and the mental turmoil I've dealt with, this seems like the perfect time to rededicate myself. So, to share this with you, I'll include the prayer I will say to rededicate myself, and my simple ritual.
I light a candle, and sit in an area that is private where I know I won't be disturbed. Then I stare at the flame until I reach a meditative state and ground and center myself. This is so I can fully feel the energies of the earth flowing through me. I will stay in this state for a while, until I feel totally and completely relaxed and open. Then, while I'm in my meditative state, I will welcome the God and Goddess. This is the time for me to discuss intimate things with them. I'll tell them my hopes and dreams, worries and fears, and just let everything go, so my mind can start as a clean slate. Then I will say this prayer:
God and Goddess, hear me, your daughter Willow.
This has been a long year, and I have strayed from my path a few times.
On this Samhain eve, the time for endings and new beginnings,
I rededicate myself to you and to my chosen path.
Bless me and hold me close, be with me as I walk the winding path of the craft.
So mote it be.
After the prayer, I will come out of my meditative state and drink something sweet and eat something salty to help bring me back to earth. The feeling a person gets after a dedication ceremony is the most wonderful you can ever feel. No matter what religion you are, if you truly believe in what you are doing it will lift every worry, erase every stress, and make you feel whole and new again. Thanks for stopping by for the party! For more party fun click here or here to go back to the list of partiers!
10/30/2011
10/28/2011
I've Got News!
I found a new witchy friend! I've actually gone to school with her for a while, and we've been talking and hanging out for a while. I just found out today that she is Wiccan. Out of respect for her, I'm not going to say her name, but I was so excited when I just decided to ask her what religion she was and she told me Wiccan! So exciting! I've had a couple of witchy friends before. One that I met was from Virginia. We'd gone to school together at SPC. Her energy was wacky and weird. You know when you feel someone's energy is off, like they've got a major mental illness, or some sort of weird sickness? That's how she felt to me. I'm not talking about her being bipolar or something like that, I mean some sort of major mental illness. Our energies didn't meld well together, and she had some beliefs that were opposing to mine. She was also the kind of person that played "Poor pitiful me, everyone treats me wrong, I need things handed to me, etc., etc., etc." Needless to say, that friendship didn't end well. Then there was Ari's mom. I loved her, and loved spending time talking to her, learning from her, but Ari was so jealous of us getting close. So, that friendship didn't work out either because her weird, jealous daughter couldn't stand the idea of anyone else getting close to her friends. So I am excited to have met a friend that is as normal as I get.
Okay, off that subject and on to the next one. I said goodbye to my favorite client today. Unfortunately, today was the last day that I got to work on her at the school. I'll be moving 2 hours away after I finish school, or I have a sneaking suspicion that she would have followed me. I knew before hand that this would be our last appointment, so I made a small gift bag for her, as a thank you for everything she did for me, known and unknown. She was the client I looked forward to every week. No matter what was going on in my life at the time, she always somehow made it better. I cannot describe the wonderful bond we had, but I will say that after she got in her truck to leave, I snuck off to a hiding place and cried. I'm going to miss her so much. Saying goodbye to her was so hard. I know I can't just stay on at the school forever and ever just because of my one favorite client, but I wish things had worked out to where I could still see her after graduating.
Anyway, I'm still waiting on my little brother and my friend to show up. My friend apparently thinks it's okay to wait until the absolute last minute to show up tonight, but I have to get to school early tomorrow since I'm completely booked with it being my next to last day. I will not be staying up late tonight, and if I get woke up by my little brother and friend coming in late tonight someone will get words they don't want to hear thrown at them. So yeah, there's what's going on in my life now. Light, love, and brightest blessings!
Also, I forgot to mention it, but I will be changing the url to the blog soon. I'll post a countdown to the day of the change on the sidebar, and I'll update the html for my button. When the url change happens, please be sure to grab a new button so the html will be correct and will send readers to the correct page.
Okay, off that subject and on to the next one. I said goodbye to my favorite client today. Unfortunately, today was the last day that I got to work on her at the school. I'll be moving 2 hours away after I finish school, or I have a sneaking suspicion that she would have followed me. I knew before hand that this would be our last appointment, so I made a small gift bag for her, as a thank you for everything she did for me, known and unknown. She was the client I looked forward to every week. No matter what was going on in my life at the time, she always somehow made it better. I cannot describe the wonderful bond we had, but I will say that after she got in her truck to leave, I snuck off to a hiding place and cried. I'm going to miss her so much. Saying goodbye to her was so hard. I know I can't just stay on at the school forever and ever just because of my one favorite client, but I wish things had worked out to where I could still see her after graduating.
Anyway, I'm still waiting on my little brother and my friend to show up. My friend apparently thinks it's okay to wait until the absolute last minute to show up tonight, but I have to get to school early tomorrow since I'm completely booked with it being my next to last day. I will not be staying up late tonight, and if I get woke up by my little brother and friend coming in late tonight someone will get words they don't want to hear thrown at them. So yeah, there's what's going on in my life now. Light, love, and brightest blessings!
Also, I forgot to mention it, but I will be changing the url to the blog soon. I'll post a countdown to the day of the change on the sidebar, and I'll update the html for my button. When the url change happens, please be sure to grab a new button so the html will be correct and will send readers to the correct page.
10/27/2011
I Graduated Today!
Well not totally. I still have to complete a few hours. I'll be 100% done on Tuesday, but we had our graduation ceremony today. I was informed last minute that I would be included in the graduation ceremony so Mom wasn't able to come since the ceremony was today and I was told today that I would be part of it. At 3:45 I was still dressed in my school uniform which is all black with a hideous black apron, when I noticed that all the other people graduating today were dressed in nicer clothes. I went out to my truck praying I had a nice top that was clean stashed in there somewhere and quickly changed and took my hat off and my hair out of my ponytail. My friend Dana and her son and boyfriend were the only ones able to come last minute. I, of course, was the only one that was informed last minute, so everyone else had family there.
I was the first one called, and I felt like they were trying to make it seem like, "Oh look at that poor little girl, she has no one here for her, she had a lot of obstacles to overcome to finish school, oh that poor baby." I was very angry that I wasn't even given a chance to inform my family so they could be there for me, and I hated feeling like a charity case when the owner of the school told everyone about how I had a lot of things to get through to get here and so on. I was pissed that my mom couldn't be there and I was vaguely alone. On top of that, the closer I get to being completely finished the more I realize Gram isn't here to watch me finish or to be my state board model. I'm glad to be holding my diploma, but I wish they hadn't made me their charity case. I'm not a charity case. When I started the course I paid for it in full without the help or benefit of financial aid, I supplied my own supplies all throughout school, and my parents have helped by supplying gas money, lunch money, and so much more. I am no one's charity case.
I was extremely disappointed that none of my family could come because the school short changed me again. I had teachers take pictures and text them to me just so I could send them to Mom. Crystal, my nail tech teacher, asked if I wanted anyone to come or anyone there. Of course I did, but because they decided to tell me I would be part of the ceremony on the day of the ceremony, none of my people were able to come. My parents have jobs. They can't just leave at the drop of a hat. It was just a bullshit day altogether, but I'm glad that I hit that milestone. Now I've got tomorrow, Saturday, and Tuesday left and I'll be completely finished.
On a different note, the moving service was paid today. They'll be out as scheduled on Tuesday to move my house. The city of Whiteface has been working on prepping my land for my house, and my little brother and friend will be here tomorrow evening to help me pack my house and load up all my stuff and Saturday evening we will all drive back down to my mom's and wait for the movers to get my house there. Monday I will sign the paperwork on my land and officially be a land owner. Monday evening I'll drive back to Amarillo, stay with Dana, go to school for the last time on Tuesday then go back to Mom's. So that's everything that's going on. I need to find the serial number for my house so I can complete the paperwork for the movers so I can fax it to them tomorrow and clean a little at my house before my little brother and friend get here tomorrow so I'll talk to you all tomorrow. Blessings, light and love.
I was the first one called, and I felt like they were trying to make it seem like, "Oh look at that poor little girl, she has no one here for her, she had a lot of obstacles to overcome to finish school, oh that poor baby." I was very angry that I wasn't even given a chance to inform my family so they could be there for me, and I hated feeling like a charity case when the owner of the school told everyone about how I had a lot of things to get through to get here and so on. I was pissed that my mom couldn't be there and I was vaguely alone. On top of that, the closer I get to being completely finished the more I realize Gram isn't here to watch me finish or to be my state board model. I'm glad to be holding my diploma, but I wish they hadn't made me their charity case. I'm not a charity case. When I started the course I paid for it in full without the help or benefit of financial aid, I supplied my own supplies all throughout school, and my parents have helped by supplying gas money, lunch money, and so much more. I am no one's charity case.
I was extremely disappointed that none of my family could come because the school short changed me again. I had teachers take pictures and text them to me just so I could send them to Mom. Crystal, my nail tech teacher, asked if I wanted anyone to come or anyone there. Of course I did, but because they decided to tell me I would be part of the ceremony on the day of the ceremony, none of my people were able to come. My parents have jobs. They can't just leave at the drop of a hat. It was just a bullshit day altogether, but I'm glad that I hit that milestone. Now I've got tomorrow, Saturday, and Tuesday left and I'll be completely finished.
On a different note, the moving service was paid today. They'll be out as scheduled on Tuesday to move my house. The city of Whiteface has been working on prepping my land for my house, and my little brother and friend will be here tomorrow evening to help me pack my house and load up all my stuff and Saturday evening we will all drive back down to my mom's and wait for the movers to get my house there. Monday I will sign the paperwork on my land and officially be a land owner. Monday evening I'll drive back to Amarillo, stay with Dana, go to school for the last time on Tuesday then go back to Mom's. So that's everything that's going on. I need to find the serial number for my house so I can complete the paperwork for the movers so I can fax it to them tomorrow and clean a little at my house before my little brother and friend get here tomorrow so I'll talk to you all tomorrow. Blessings, light and love.
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