Angry At Myself

So, I'm currently feeling a little down and a little angry with myself. I am my own worst enemy if you really want to know the truth. Tonight I realized I am not going to be able to handle two literature classes, especially since they are back to back in the same room but with two different teachers on the same days. So I decided to drop the earliest one. I can always retake it next semester. However, now that I've submitted the drop form, I feel a little bit like a failure. If I was just a little harder on myself when it came to doing the readings and not going to sleep so late and maybe taking my sleeping pills when my insomnia would hit, I might not have fallen behind.

Now I'm angry with myself because I fell so far behind I couldn't take the first test. I don't know if you've ever tried to take two literature classes back to back but I know I had problems with the assigned stories blending together until they just didn't make any sense to me. I would have to read one story for the class at 10 am and another story for the class at 11 am and sometimes I had more than one reading to do and they just blended together to the point where I couldn't separate them for the classes.

So now that I've dropped the class I only have one literature class, one writing class, and a psychology class that is three hours long each time we go to class. Goddess, please don't let me have made the wrong choice.