First, let me say, I'm glad to be back. I missed everyone! I was just entirely too stressed to handle writing anything this week. I'm sorry I missed Self Empowering Mondays, I didn't feel personally empowered enough to be able to writing a self empowering post. If I did it would have fallen flat.
So, I have a couple of things to tell you. First my grandma is having some back problems. T-10 in her back is completely collapsed and they found some scar tissue in her lung. She's been to the doctor getting tests run today to find out if she is capable of going through the non-invasive surgery to fix her vertebra (did I spell that right? In the right context?) and I think they've decided to leave the scar tissue alone because it's only about an inch big and at the very top of her lung so it apparently isn't hurting anything. So I've been in a little bit of a funk with all this going on. Things seem to be getting better though.
Second, I had a very amazing things happen to me last night. Well it started with a bad thing and ended with something pretty cool. Mr. Cup and I are currently fighting because he is a disrespectful jerk that doesn't understand that he deeply hurt my feelings. He was supposed to go to the bar with me, Mr. Sci-fi, and Mr. Giant, but instead he decided he was going to blow us off to stay in his room and talk to some girl that he thinks he's going to date even though she lives several hours away and isn't going to come to our school. So I got really upset and decided to come back to my room and Mr. Giant came with me. He was trying to cheer me up. In all reality all I wanted to do was lay in bed and cry all night, but Mr. Giant wasn't having that. He sat and watched New Moon with me, his choice not my mine lol, then he started watching Harry Potter and I fell asleep during that.
But what I want to tell you about has nothing to do with the movies. Mr. Giant sat on my bed while I was in the bathroom and when I came out he had my new set of tarot cards in his hands and wanted to know what they were. I was a little worried about telling him what they were but I told him anyway and he was really fascinated with them and wanted me to do a reading on him. So we went through several readings and I learned some new things about him that I'd never known. Then I decided I wanted to use my Druidcraft Tarot cards because I've had them a little longer and wanted to see what they would have to say. So I held them in my hands and asked "How can Mr. Giant heal his pain," I didn't ask about specific pain because I didn't know what kind of pain it was, I just sensed a really deep well of pain.
I never even got a chance to shuffle the cards or even lay them out. I asked they question twice in my mind and after the second time, answers starting flowing into my mind. As they came I told them to Mr. Giant and talked to him about all of it. They were all spot on and I didn't even get to look at the cards. Mr. Giant was amazed and I was a little freaked out at first because that has never happened to me before. However, after my initial "Oh my God, that was new! Where did that come from," reaction, I calmed down and just accepted it. Now I'm a little proud of myself for it. After that, Mr. Giant said he was confused about where to start to heal and work on some problems he has. I had discussed some options with him but he wanted to see what the cards said so I threw them out for him.
I didn't write down any of the cards from the readings, although I admit I should have. But the first few blatantly told him "The answers are within you." And he got so worried because he didn't know where to start. So we sat and discussed his choices and what he could do to make things better. I don't want to tell you what he's working at because it's actually really deeply personal. But after that, he asked if he would ever be happy in life. I of course told him that he would only be happy in life if he allowed himself to be happy but he wanted to ask the cards because he was so fascinated with them. So I asked the cards and the end result card was Justice. He's used to being treated badly so getting the Justice card told me that things would change for him and that the bad things that had happened in his life would come to justice and that he would get what is coming to him. I feel he will get good things because he is a good person who has been hurt deeply and I told him that. After that we put the cards away and started watching movies and I fell asleep. Currently he is still asleep in my bed while I'm sitting on my floor watching Nikelodeon.
But this morning I started thinking about the cards that said the answers are within you and the Justice card. The answers to your deepest fears, worries, and even your deepest happiness, all lie within you. You choose how your life is going to turn out because you choose how you will perceive it. If you look at life like it sucks all the time, it will, but if you wake up and tell yourself that you are a good person, you deserve good things, and you find the joy around you, your life is going to be pretty good. No use living for tomorrow, life has already started, live for the here and now!