Found a Place Where I Feel Comfortable!

I'm sorry I've missed a few Fridays. So much has been going on in my life. I moved to a new place so I'm no longer living with my mom, then I had a bout of depression that I had a pretty hard time kicking, and things have pretty much been a little crazy. Today I woke up at 8 in the morning freezing my tail off because my heater wasn't working. Come to find out I had to throw the breakers for the house to get everything working again and the stupid breaker box was outside. I figured as long as I was awake I may as well get dressed and go to church... Yep I said it CHURCH.

I've been interested in the Unitarian Univeralist Church for a long time. A couple of years ago I desperately wanted to be closer to like minded people so I asked several of my online Pagan friends where a good place would be to start looking for those like minded people. I was directed to the Unitarian Universalist Church. For one reason or another I never got to attend until today, and I absolutely love it! It isn't a Christian Church. They welcome people of every faith, even atheists which technically have no faith, at least not in a higher power. I never thought I could feel so at home, so accepted, and so comfortable in a church. I am now working on becoming a full fledged member. For you guys that desperately want to meet like minded people, look up your area Unitarian Universalist Church. Check out the Unitarian Universalist Associations website to find a church near you. I promise you it's not a "you better believe in Jesus or you are going to hell" type place. I really think you will like it there. Also, if you're in the Lubbock, Tx area consider coming to the First Unitarian Universalist Church of Lubbock. I never thought I would be promoting a church, but I really and truly love this place!

Anyway, on another subject, I found a wonderful open area to take Princess walking. There were several other people there walking their dogs as well. I'm not letting Princess off leash yet because she gets way too excited and doesn't listen to me in new places but she's still young (only 16 weeks) and she'll learn. She really enjoyed our walk today. I liked the area too. My only concern is all the litter scattered everywhere by the other people "enjoying" the area. I'm considering taking a trash bag with me the next time Princess and I go walking so I can slowly clean up the areas that Princess and I walk in. Here's a picture of the place we found:

I took the picture with my phone so it's not the best ever but it shows you a little of the area at least. I'm really enjoying life now. I'll be looking for a job on Tuesday and I'm keeping myself busy and finding things to do. I am loving being involved in things around here. I'm hoping to get Princess into a training class soon because she needs the socialization and because she decided to pee and poop on my roommate's bed. I cleaned it as best as I could but it still stinks so I'll be looking on craigslist soon to find a bed to replace this one unless any of you guys know a secret on getting urine and feces smells out of mattresses. I don't understand why Princess is doing that, she knows better and she likes my roommate so why is she pottying on his bed? Anyway, I hope things are going well with all of you guys as well. Blessings to you all.


Friday Confessions: Confession #1

I've sat and thought long and hard about what I wanted to share with you guys as my first confession. A billion thoughts streamed through my head; should it be something huge, something small and build up to bigger things? Oh my cracker, what if I don't do something good enough and everyone gets bored and decides to never read my blog again, especially after me being a jerk yesterday? I finally settled on sharing the two biggest oddities in my personality.

Oddity number one: I am extremely socially awkward. I may sound eloquent or witty when you read my writing, but in real life I have a hard time speaking to people. I love to meet new people and I like to have good conversations, but I have a really hard time with it. The issues I have may not be visible because a long time ago I trained my face to only show what I wanted it to show (I'll tell you why in a later confession) but inside of my crazy head I have a helmet on and am rocking back and forth. This oddity annoys me to no end. I wish I could be more relaxed when meeting new people and not so stressed out about it.

This brings me to oddity number two: I over analyze EVERYTHING, to the extent that I break down every sentence I've said to make sure it is grammatically correct. I have literally over thought stirring a pot of spaghetti noodles. I take every action, every word, every facial movement, every laugh, and hold it under my mental microscope for inspection. I try to look at it from every angle possible and consider every reaction other people might have to the tiniest thing. Unfortunately I do it after the matter is over. I'll sit up until 5 a.m. analyzing everything I did the previous day. I lay in bed and beg my mind to SHUT UP just so I can get some sleep. If I have to over think everything I wish I could retrain my brain to be like my first love. He also over thinks everything but he does it every second of every day rather than when he's trying to fall asleep at the end of the day.

Anyway, those are my two biggest oddities in my personal opinion. Maybe not the most shocking confession ever, but I hope this gives you a little better understanding of me. After all, that's what these confessions are about, giving people a VIP pass to the dark recesses of my mind. If you would like to share a confession please feel free to leave one in the comments. I want Friday Confessions to be about sharing.


Explanation of Friday Confessions

So Wendy asked me what Friday Confessions is exactly. Let me explain. As a 22, almost 23, year old, I have things that I've done and things that I think about that I normally just keep to myself. As a way to be honest with myself I feel like I should share these things. Not like a Catholic confession where I say I've sinned, no these are just things I usually keep secret that I wish to share. I will not be asking for forgiveness because while we all have things that we regret such as what if situations, etc., I think life is too short to beg forgiveness for our personal decisions. So from now on, every Friday I will confess something to you guys, it may be something dark, it may be something funny, and it may be down right weird because lets face it, I am a little weird lol, but it will always be genuine. If you guys want to participate you can add your confessions to the comments area. Later this may evolve into something more but for now it is just a weekly thing I host at my blog. Hope you guys will drip by every Friday to see what I have to say and I hope you guys feel comfortable enough to join in.


Introducing a New Theme

I have finally decided on what weekly thing I would like to do. I hope you guys are going to like it! I decided on Friday Confessions. I will start them this Friday but no worries if you miss it, you will always be able to find my confessions and there will be a new one every Friday. Here's the button for it, grab it, share it, hope you like it :D

Book Review: Nocturne by Syrie James

I have found a romance novel that I actually like. I'd never heard of the author before until I was asked to review this book and I love this author. Syrie James has a very clear, definite "writing voice". Her intelligence shines through her word choices and her eloquently written love scenes (definitely not smut).

The book itself is wonderful, I had a hard time putting it down. However, it is a fairly typical romance. It starts out with a woman who finds herself in life threatening danger and a man who saves her. They end up living together for four days through a blizzard. The man at first is slightly rude to the woman because he secretly is a vampire and doesn't want her to know, but they are both wildly attracted to each other. The woman, Nicole finds out the man, Michael, is a vampire and runs out into a blizzard putting herself in danger again. Michael saves her again and they finally admit they love each other. From there the book has some ups and downs, including a crazy twist that leaves you in tears. All in all the book is amazing. I give it 4 stars. Find it, read it, love it.