I Hate My Job

I work at a local convenience store here where I live and I hate it. I've always hated working in convenience stores but when I got hired for this job I was so thankful because I hadn't been working for a while and I desperately needed the money. But after just a week of working my manager informed me he was having to cut back everyone's hours because labor was too high. I thought "Okay, that's no big deal, labor is gonna be rough right now anyway because the tourist season is over and things are gonna start slowing down again." But on the next schedule two girls younger than me had 32 hours a piece, and I only had 16 hours. At first I thought nothing of it because I had been sick and my manager had been sending me home for me to get better.

But the next week it was no better. I had 16 hours and the other girls had 32 along with everyone else having way more than me. Then my manager told me I had to start stepping up and showing him something or I wasn't going to work out. I couldn't figure that out because I'm a worker, if I go in to work somewhere I give it my all. The boyfriend and I talked about it because it was really starting to bug me that I had so little hours and everyone else did and then I got griped at by my manager. We came to the conclusion that my manager was giving me less hours because everyone else I work for has kids and I don't. It's not that I don't want kids. Eventually I want my own children and my own family, but it's just not time for me to have them yet. It irritates me that just because these little 18 year old girls have kids he's giving them more hours than me after he preaches about how fair a manager he is.

Today is pay day, so I went up to the store around noon like I was told to last time and the assistant manager was glaring at me. I couldn't for the life of me figure out what her problem was. Then I went back and checked the schedule. I had it in my head that the new schedule came out every Sunday, the same day we got paid, but apparently they come out every Friday and no one had seen fit to tell me this. So I was supposed to have gone to work at 11 this morning and I'd had no idea about it. Now at 2 the checks are in (finally) and I could hear my manager in the background saying, "She should have brought her ass to work." I was looking for another job anyway because I don't like working in convenience stores at all but now I'm definitely putting more into the job search.

I'll be going to another fast food place here in town and applying there tomorrow because Miss J's little brother just got hired there and he told me they are paying the people that have had previous experience with places like Pizza Hut, McDonald's, etc, higher than they are those that don't have that experience and I have that experience so maybe this time will be better. Now I have to go up to the store and face my manager and I would rather eat nails. I know he's going to gripe me out again, and I'm already mad at him, so I'm really afraid of what's going to happen. But I know if I want to be an adult and live on my own and work and everything else that goes along with being an adult I have to go up there, behave, and act like the adult I'm trying to be.


Diandra said...

Don't worry, everything will work itself out in the end. Sometimes we just need to get through the dirty patches in the road that is life. I am sure you will find a job you like better.

Leeanna said...

Diandra is right my dear. Just look for something better. It's out there you just have to find it. You are in Texas? Where? I live in Seguin (pronounced Sah-geen), off of I-10. It's right outside of San Antonio. I am a Domestic Diva now. I used to do lab work for a local hospital but the aches and pains of arthritis have taken it's toll on me.

Shaiha said...

Everything happens for a reason though it can be hard to discover that reason when you are right in the middle of it. It doesn't sound as though this is the job for you but just think. Perhaps you got this job simply because you needed to meet someone that will have a later impact on your life. You never can tell because the Goddess does love her mysteries.